A Poem By Someone Who's Not Me

Mad Girl's Love Song

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
and arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
and sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, Hell's fires fade:
exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
but I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
at least when spring comes, they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

-Sylvia Plath

I never want to leave California.

I Might Have to Close My Eyes

Greg came to Chicago, so today we got to frolic around the city together. We went to many fun places and got caught in the rain and it was a very good day. I think one of the best places we explored was the Fourth Presbyterian Church on Michigan Avenue. (A little history for you: the original church was built in the 1800's but burned down in the Chicago fire. This church was finished and open in 1914. Also, I take no credit for that picture.) Anyway, I always love to walk around the courtyard and look at the gargoyles, the old fountain, and the statues and their engravings. There's ivy growing up the stone walls and delicate flowers and perfectly green plants and grass. It is so beautiful on the outside, especially at Christmastime when the lights are up. I had never actually been inside the church until today. Greg and I went in just as a service was letting out and the sanctuary was absolutely beautiful. It's so old and majestic, with intricate detailing everywhere, beautiful stain glass windows, and a high, sloped wood ceiling. It was a strange feeling, to be in such an old, sacred place and to look outside and see the modern world passing by.

In other news, the job I almost had ended up not being mine. This means that I am mighty poor.
After hanging out with Greg today, I want to go back to school.
It's only June 8th. Ha.

changechangechange

I will do many things this summer.
I will take the initiative. I won't be afraid. I will make money through a legal job. I will stop those feelings and it will be great, great, great! I will also finish those damn online classes, which are so very boring. Maybe I'll even pick a major! Hm...maybe. I don't want to get too carried away! Oh, if you could only hear my voice inflection.

I leave for California on the 10th. Hopefully I'll have something interesting to post after that. I have pictures from PA/Virginia Beach (which were extremely fun) but they're pretty blase.
Jesse Powell, you best be coming to visit me in July.

Love to all of you!

I'll Write You a Postcard, I'll Send You the News

My adventures begin tomorrow. I'm headed for New York to visit family, which is going to be interesting, to say the least. When I'm there, I feel like my life isn't real. The majority of my extended family seems like they should be fictional characters in a movie. They really shouldn't be real. FUN TIMES TO BE HAD!
I do love New York, though.

I hope everyone is still around. I'm going to read all of your blogs right now. I miss you guys.

You Missed the Starting Gun

It's strange to me that my first year of college is ending.  Time has passed so quickly and I wonder how I've changed.  (Have I changed?)  I feel like all of this time has been wasted if nothing has touched me, if I have nothing to show.  Because, really, what do I have to show?  I have some great new friends and memories of great times but has a person or life (or God?) really touched me or shown me something new?  Has anything opened my eyes or really made me think?  The worst thought that I have is that I haven't given people (or God) the chance to change my life.  I know God has the power to change lives and I know that people can do it too.  Maybe I've missed something. 

All I know is that God is working.  In the last few days, I've felt different, so maybe someone's praying for me.  Maybe God's just got my back. But my doubts are gone and I feel pretty good about the future.  

Soon finals will be over and summer will be here.  If anyone happens to be in Chicago over break, give me a call.  I'd be happy to see you.

The Same Old Fears

Sometimes I feel like I need to go away.

Swimming in a Fish Bowl

I want to go somewhere.  Europe sounds good.

I can't think of a title for my Review submission. Untitled? Why not. I keep having second thoughts on submitting it. I guess I will.

March is almost over and I have a feeling that many things will be happening in April. If I actually cared about studying, I probably would have a ton of that to do.  Sometimes I wish I cared more.

It's been a good weekend.

Procrastination!

I am sitting in The Grille with my best friend, Ian McAfee.  He's pretty cool, I guess...and hot.

Since I'm updating instead of studying, I thought I'd write something important.  However, I don't have anything amazing to say, so I'm giving you a recommendation instead.  "Things I've Bought That I Love" is one of my favorite blogs.  As stated in the title, the blog is about things that people have bought that they really enjoy.  There are many contributors, the main "blogger" is Mindy Kaling, who many will know as "Kelly" from "The Office", as well as a writer for the show.  Mindy is hilarious, and it's fun to read about the interesting things people have bought or want.  I recommend this blog to anyone who is interested in clothes, random, obscure objects, and occasional thoughts on music, books, movies, and restaurants.  (Side note: Boys, please don't run away in fear just because the last update was about Valentine's Day Lingerie.  To the other boys who wouldn't run away- don't get too excited.)

Peace.

Dollar dollar bill, y'all

I'll be honest.  After Drea mentioned her old Livejournal, I decided to pay it a little visit because I was, in fact, friends with her on that bad boy back in the day.  Let me tell you, there is nothing like an old school livejournal.  However, because Drea WILL kill me, all I'll say about it is that it's nice to see that her disregard for showering hasn't changed in the last three years.  And I would also pay big money to see a picture of her on the first day of 11th grade, since she apparently crimped her hair for the festivities.  Thank you, Livejournal.

Like my dear friend, I will also be posting about fashion.  In fact, you can start looking forward to a three (maybe four) part special on the trends of Spring '08!  (I know, boys.  Please just read anyway.)  I will also be sharing my thoughts on life and other random things.  I might throw in an occasional movie/music/book review too.  Basically, I'm just going to be writing about anything I feel needs to be shared.  I hope you enjoy it.

les premiers mots

Starting a blog is not a new endeavor for me. In my lifetime, I've had two Xanga's, two Livejournal's, and something like five Blogspots. I'd give you all the url's for those, but it's too embarrassing. Then, I was young, dumb, and naive. Now, I'm mature, intelligent, and hot.

Anyway, though I've failed at these in the past, I am committed to making this blog work. Maybe it's because for once I feel like I actually have thoughts. Thoughts that matter, that is. So you may be asking yourself what this blog is all about. Well, I can't speak for that hoodlum Christie, but my posts will most likely be rants. Or completely (or, rather, partially) objective views on fashion. Or possibly pointless stories from my life. We'll see. In the meantime, though, keep reading. You never know, it could be good...