A Poem By Someone Who's Not Me

Mad Girl's Love Song

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
and arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
and sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, Hell's fires fade:
exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
but I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
at least when spring comes, they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

-Sylvia Plath

I never want to leave California.

I Might Have to Close My Eyes

Greg came to Chicago, so today we got to frolic around the city together. We went to many fun places and got caught in the rain and it was a very good day. I think one of the best places we explored was the Fourth Presbyterian Church on Michigan Avenue. (A little history for you: the original church was built in the 1800's but burned down in the Chicago fire. This church was finished and open in 1914. Also, I take no credit for that picture.) Anyway, I always love to walk around the courtyard and look at the gargoyles, the old fountain, and the statues and their engravings. There's ivy growing up the stone walls and delicate flowers and perfectly green plants and grass. It is so beautiful on the outside, especially at Christmastime when the lights are up. I had never actually been inside the church until today. Greg and I went in just as a service was letting out and the sanctuary was absolutely beautiful. It's so old and majestic, with intricate detailing everywhere, beautiful stain glass windows, and a high, sloped wood ceiling. It was a strange feeling, to be in such an old, sacred place and to look outside and see the modern world passing by.

In other news, the job I almost had ended up not being mine. This means that I am mighty poor.
After hanging out with Greg today, I want to go back to school.
It's only June 8th. Ha.

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I will do many things this summer.
I will take the initiative. I won't be afraid. I will make money through a legal job. I will stop those feelings and it will be great, great, great! I will also finish those damn online classes, which are so very boring. Maybe I'll even pick a major! Hm...maybe. I don't want to get too carried away! Oh, if you could only hear my voice inflection.

I leave for California on the 10th. Hopefully I'll have something interesting to post after that. I have pictures from PA/Virginia Beach (which were extremely fun) but they're pretty blase.
Jesse Powell, you best be coming to visit me in July.

Love to all of you!